Roaming Fingers – The story of child sexual abuse

We all have our "story" to tell the growth of our lives. Some had a good time in the loving childhood in which my mom had a home made home baked cakes as they came to school, set clean clothes for the next day and dined at the stove. Fathers went home, everyone was sitting at the table and enjoyed the food the mother had prepared and then the kids could tell their dad the day when dinner was cleaned. Some were encouraged by the parents, helping them home after dinner, and enjoyed spending the next day with the kids. You know, one of those "Leave It To Beaver" families. Then there were those who for some reason were minus one parent … usually divorce or death. Or what about those who lived in alcoholic or drug-dependent parents who were not "parents" at all. Their children were basically alone, raising themselves and making themselves and making the most of their use.

I do not know why I share this now. I just feel that someone is out there to know you're not alone. To live a normal life. I molested 4 people in the age group 8-14. But the Lord God, I myself have guided everything. I cleaned and cleaned with the blood of the Lord. I do not have to live in my life anymore for my wrath to take care of me anymore.

I was one of the kids who had my "unique" circumstances in adulthood. My parents were divorced when I was 7 years old, although my father moved to 5 years of age. I was the oldest of us. We moved to a small town to get closer to my grandparents, my mother's parents. We moved to Denver, CO from the largest metropolis of Julesburg, CO to a small town. First, when I was younger, I made my life-long friend with my daughter, who lived across the street from her grandparent's house. This was before the second-grade school year. From time to time, our life seemed a bit "normal" in the dolls' play or pretended to be a teacher at school or the construction of a bastard producer …

But in my life, there's been a lot of things that made me who I am today. I can not begin to say what my life and justice did! I can tell so many stories for you! At one of the 27 places I moved and lived from 7 to 18 years of age. I went to 11 schools for 12 years. I think that we are moving so often with us, I remembered with myself that "it's better to make your friends fast because I'm sure we're moving and I have to go." I think my sister took the theory of "why it disturbs the friendship, because otherwise we are going." And my brother, a boy, while I was a friend, was not so big of the deal and it was a fairly easy friendship, but it's not such a big question as our daughters.

When I was eight, my mother started a Japanese farmer in our area and soon began to deal with Kinoshita's name. As you can imagine, our three kids had quite entertained that name at that time, deliberately declaring Kin-O-Shit-A. It's average, is not it? Well, this is the first time I sexually molested. After dinner, my mother would go to the kitchen to wash the food in her house and our 3 kids and her boyfriend lay on the floor watching a TV. Well, my fiance "rubs my belly" with this time. "Now I was eight, so after the dinner I wanted to rub the tube I felt very strange to me, but I thought, okay, I think if that is normal, it felt uncomfortable, but my mother she said she was just trying to be okay … Okay, so beautiful … I guess? But those blooms rub, they've become "roaming fingers," and getting a little higher and a little higher .. Soon my belly becomes rubbing, I was just beginning to develop, but it was still enough that it was incredibly uncomfortable. My mother said she really wanted this marriage because she was financially good and every night that this was going on, I tried to keep my homework we had to lie down on the floor and watch the TV, but one or another of the ways she took me and my mom repeatedly told us she did not want this the relationship is disrupting the kids. So I closed my mouth until I was out of school at home from school sometime. She went home and talked to her mother. I did not know what they were talking about because their parents spoke only Spanish, so I did not think much. But her mother, after hearing what was going on here, assured me that they were with me and that was something I should have spoken to my mother right away. So with both my friend and mother, they both sat there, called my mom and told him what had happened. I do not know how much I really told my mother about her new fiancĂ©, but I know she broke up with her. At the same time, my friend's mother suggested that she go to the police, but my mom said she did not need to call the police because she was "so rich that she could be the owner of the city so nobody would believe it.

Then my mom found a younger guy who could come in the morning and stay with us when he got off at the truck stop at 6 o'clock and he started at 6:00 am she works for the whole night shift and will stay with our three children each day as our "babysitter." Oh, it was fun to have breakfast, take us to school or to play in the playground and chase us around the house. But when he came in the morning every morning, instead of going to my mother's empty bed to sleep a little, he also climbed into my bed with me. the "roaming fingers." Apart from these times, these fingers climb up and down. I was 9 and was 21 years old. What was that tempting at that time? I did not even develop physically for the sake of goodness !!! Anyway, it took weeks. I told my mother, but she thought that since she was with her ex-bridegroom, "then I have to do something to encourage these guys." So even though he did not listen to us, I remember I was dead. I did. I could not help myself. I just wanted her dead so she could never do that again! A few months later, while working at the electrical company, her partner decided to start drinking beer in the lunch break. Well Curtis climbed the pole to work on a particular wire that caused them trouble and suffered an electric shock. The pole fell, his partner was drinking, was not sufficiently functional to provide oral resuscitation. I knew I was doing everything. I prayed and asked him to die, and he did. You know, I was all wrong … I wished and I prayed for it. I knew this was my fault. I felt this guilty thing many years later. Someone was dead and this was my fault.

Then we had a family friend with whom we had been friends with him and his wife years ago. In fact, most of us loved to go to their house. It was like an adopted mother for kids and we could win her husband to play games with us, tell us tales, etc. You would have heard that you could sit back from Dr. Seuss books! It was a rebellion! And that was a tongue wrench that read it back, not to mention it read. And for a long time, we wanted him to cheat for asking Big Mac in Burger King! So, I do not have to say, they often go to their house. Generally, however, I got the big bed with her wife, because we'd always gone to bed much earlier than she and she slept in the bedroom or in the bedroom. His wife usually sent me to wake up when the time came for us to get up every morning. Then the roaming "roaming fingers" are resumed. I was in the 10-12 year old age most of the time. But without telling my mother (keep in mind that she last decided that I should be tempted by these "men") to be sure enough to me and I was once again wrong.

Over time we moved again as before, so we did not see them as often as before. It was at the beginning of the eighth grade, so there was a school in Jr. High and we suddenly left the CO and went to good oI. My mom broke up with a lorryman with whom he was dating, a real walnut guy who set candles in a circle around our cellar and called for the Mojave Dessert. So, as we got home from school on that day, we only bought some of our less important property (and very few) and our cats and loaded a small U-trailer. where there is no special attention. My mother suggested IA so we went to West. We were in Council Bluffs and without money. So we stayed here.

Of course, we moved to school again on the eleventh time and started another school in Council Bluffs while a double room, a bathroom, a crock pot to cook and three cats. We started a school but were "poor kids" and they did not fit well. But we moved again. This time it was a good thing. I started in class 9, but in a completely different school. This school was much better, more acceptable, far less judgmental and critical, and we were not treated as "low-grade scum" here.

Finally I was 14 years old. Last year, before I started high school. I was so excited! Finally I grew up, I started wearing makeup, tied my hair and thought about the big word "B" BOYS !!! We lived in a house close to the school, so it was on foot. My mom works again in one of the nearby trucks. But the money was tight, so my mom brought the truck driver home to help us with the payment of the bills. Well, this guy was 28 years old. My mother worked the whole night shift at the truck stop, and Terry is home at most nights and runs most days. Well Terry really liked me right away. Look, I just turned around. My sister and I shared a bedroom with my brother on the left side and Sue's room on the corridor (a girl / lady from the early 20's from Indiana) Terry found a day out for a trip outside the city and took home to our house to stay with us. So, that was another person who helped with paying the bills. But to get to the bathroom, we had to walk through a small corridor and go over to Sue's room to get there. Then the bathroom was to the left, and then Terry's bedroom was right. My mother's room was on the ground floor. There was a second door between the bathroom and Terry's bedroom. The door was closed from Terry's room, but not from his room to the bathroom. Well at night, when Terry thought that all of them had slept in bed, he entered my room, and once more, the newer guys started to travel to the notorious roaming fingers. He came in, with condoms, ready for what I think he hoped. She asks me to make something "sexy". There was nothing "sexy" because I was fourteen and the "sexy" was not what I thought in my life. Heck, I just got the makeup to look good in the morning, and before my hair bends, the school is as "sexy" as it gets. His fingers rushed to places I did not know existed. I prayed, "Please, Lord, let me think I'm really sleepy and I'm leaving tonight." Or I would pray, "Please, sir, let my sister wake up to give you enough sound or something to go with and leave me alone." He never got to the stage where I actually forced the whole sex on me, but after that night we went through this rite. He went back to his room at night and, crying with disgust, I slept to sleep. At night, I wanted my sister to just NEVER, only once. But it never seemed or I thought many years later when I learned that he was afraid to let us know he was awake because he was afraid of coming next. I do not blame it therefore. I would have liked to be left alone, but that was not the case.

Well one day Sue asked me to walk with her to talk. So, yes. She began to tell me that Terry comes into her room almost every night and asks her to "do something sexy" and "roaming her fingers" start to roam her. everybody came out … I broke out what I did to him. I pray and begged him not to tell my mom, because my mom would say, "I have to do something like this." My fault, Well Sue, knowing how young I am, finally telling my mother that eventually … So my mother went to Terry and told her that she did this to me because she "loved me so much that she could not resist being loved to love me. "Well, my mom told him to pack up and go out of our house. We went to my mother's house for a few days for a vacation, and someone needed to have a home and take care of pets so we stayed there for 3 nights and 4 days. Sue and I felt such a big peace that he was gone. Then one day, about a week later, my mom said he had to go to the truck to stop because Terry wanted to talk to him for something. So when he left, he left for several hours. When he came back he said that Terry had convinced him that he did what he did "because he loved me" and said that this was a small price because he offered to So he let us go back to our house. In the first or two weeks he was very polite, he took the chairs for me when we sat down on the table, and and I insisted on going to school to lose it every day to "let people know that I was her. "At this point I tried to convince myself that it was okay, maybe he really loved me and that I was proud and flattered that someone I loved about 28 years was a 14 year old teenager

Well, a couple of weeks passed, and things went back as they were.My mom worked all night and Terry came back to my room again with the condom in her hand and the roaming fingers started to jump up and down again The words she spoke were sick And every night she was the same, I would sadly cry to myself because I could not deal with this age and should have been having fun in school, expecting secondary school, dances, sports events, etc. But I would rather not see the future. I knew my mother wanted and needed the money, but I could not pretend to be okay. If it were not for me that the Lord placed in my path a certain girl at school who was quickly becoming the best friends and my Scientific Teacher I will never forget and always grateful maybe I ended up there. But God obviously had other plans for me. Just when I thought she left me alone, she served me with a friend and a man who was not just my teacher, but the one who really cared for me who knew that something awful home gave me sympathy, extra time when I could not concentrate on my assignments and someone who could laugh. I needed it. It made me hope that ALL men did not just want sex. Older people were not all perverted, and that God placed my life in my life as my teacher only in my life with time.

Today by the grace of God, through forgiveness and compassion, the blood of the lamb is forgiven me, the Lord Jesus himself. The person who died on the cross many years ago to have eternal life. The one who pulled it out of the darkness and returned to the light. The one who took all the pain and mistrust in the people. I thank him for having suffered in those terrible times, I came to know that it was not my fault that the only guy was hit and died. The fact that NOT the thing these four men did to me during my childhood was my fault. My mom still says, "If it really happened to Kelly, then I guess." If these things happened, why not? "It's no question that these things happened to me!" My sister once told her she knew fact, because most of the time I was in the same bed because I was almost always sharing a bedroom in adulthood I no longer expected my mother to take any responsibility for what I had gone through now I know I know I have to forgive him for forgiving Christ for my sins. But in fact, and by the grace of God alone, I am still here today. My prayer that perhaps this testimony will help someone who did something similar or even worse that there is hope in Jesus Christ. It's not your fault, give it to HIM as its shoulders are strong enough to take away from you and let it walk freely in your love.

evasion has been changed to protect the affected.

A trip to Dharmshala



Located in the beautiful, snow-capped mountains of the Western Himalayas of Dhauladhar, Dharamshala is truly a wonderful and peaceful mountain station the most for nature lovers. While the lower Dharmshala is now a commercial center, the upper Dharmshala has retained its uniqueness against the British colonial lifestyle. This is the most important city of Kangra. The wide-lying vegetation of the plains can be seen here. Lush green meadows, pleasant environment, quiet streams, dense pine forests, warm climate and snow-covered peaks are the backdrop of the scenic mountain resort of Dharmshala for tourists


Dalai's Headquarters Here is Lama, the great holy monk , which also gives this place a religious being. Many Tibetan families made Dharmshala a place of residence. Churches, churches, monasteries, museums, monuments and scenic beauty are both a delightful and pleasant place to visit for tourists. Each season and every place has its own significance. Some of them are listed below:

The monument of war – located at the beginning of the city, is a monument to the parked pine trees. This is called a war memorial and was built to commemorate the Independence Fight Heroes after Himachal Pradesh. The beautiful oval-shaped Dal Lake is another tourist attraction, which is also the starting point for hiking. Both sides are surrounded by pine trees. This is the best time of the lake in September because the annual fair held on the shore of the lake understands this place. It serves as a favorite picnic place for settlements.

St. The church is about 8 km away. from Dharmshala. This stone church stands in the shadow of deodorous trees, a place of magic and tranquility, especially for those who seek peace and comfort. In addition to the church there is a cemetery. Mcleodganj, also known as the "little lhasa", is the residence of the sacred Dalai Lama. Here you can see the huge fronts of Buddhas and other Buddhist saints. The monastery is quite impressive, representing the Buddhist religious aspects. The craftsmanship of traditional art and crafts and Tibetan culture can be purchased here on every Sunday flea market.

Bhagsunath and Kunal Pathri temples are also worth visiting. As a beautiful and picturesque view of the Kangra Valley, tourists must travel 11 km to Dharmkot, a panoramic picnic area. away from Dharmshala. Another spectacular picnic spot and excursion destination is the lovely place to go to Triun. From here there is a wonderful view of the mountains and the valleys. From here begins Illaqua's snow line. Masrur, the Ellora Church Replica is an interesting place to visit. About 15 km. The temple of the Durga goddess Temple of Dharmshala, Chamunda Devi Temple.

With a spectacular view of the mountains, this place is of great importance to the Hindu devotees who consider this place to be important to visit. They say that in this temple prayers are saluted to their ancestors. Tsuglagkhang is the main temple of Buddhists. This place gives the visitor peace and quiet. Tourists interested in Buddhist culture and religion can also visit the Buddhist Monastery, the Dip Thekchen Choeling Monastery and the Tibetan Institute of Norbulingka. So the mountain resort of Dharmshala offers many tourist attractions.

The romance of wine

This is about Fine Winer and what I call Wine Magic. There are so many ways to enjoy the wines, and when you add the wines to certain activities, magic is done. Relaxing Bath or Jacuzzi

Start a relaxing idea with a very hot bubble bath and a glass of fine wine. Relaxing Bath or Jacuzzi

Starts a relaxing idea with a very hot bubble bath and a glass of fine wine. Maybe a dark and rich RED or a soothing (not too sweet) White. Some candles burned to the mood and their own manifested peace of mind. It's a place where you can relax, stress and just be you. Forget the stress of the day, the work that has been canceled in the office, or maybe the hard day with the kids.

You were waiting alone. This time for you, fine wine, maybe a book. Peace time. Wherever you breathe air … You can add more warm water, pour another cup and just extend the peace.

The magic leads to romance:

Then there is the magic of wine, create that romantic moment with your lover. Embrace them in the hot bath, with which you and 2 have spent the romantic night together. Far from anything else. (There is no cell phone, no computer, no TV) Only you, some fine wine and magic will happen. You can relax and you will only be together.

Although women and baths are more common, the bath tub pleasures and a glass of fine wine are not just for women (not this century). One try and almost everyone can see the soothing value of Alone Time with a delicious wine under the bubbles in the Hot Tub. Try it once and you will know how wonderful it is. You will see why you let a significant woman in your life enjoy the Hot Bath every 2-3 weeks a week is worth doing extra housework or having your kids out in the park to make it happen. It will be calm, and your quest to give you complete peace of mind and silence is both worth it.

Jacuzzi and wine?

It's a fantastic idea to ask me. Outdoors, during moon, sun or day setting. A glass of fine wine and the time to enjoy fresh air, bubbles, and massages on your back. Mirror your day, your week, your life. And think about the future.

Take food for "an event"

Start with an elegant wine. Then he pairs with the perfect food and transforms Food into an "Event". From food pairs, such as fruit, cheeses, chocolate to a fuller meal to accompany rich wine. The taste of wine is all the taste, sip, repeated joy with each bite, each swallow.

Many people do not know enough about the many different wines and different kinds of wine. In addition, we did not feel enough of these different wines to find out which party is the most appropriate to them, except for trial and error. Or maybe you were lucky enough to go with a wine tasting or a wine tasting with wine and food pairs.

Have you tried flavoring the perfect fine wine and grapes, soft white cheese, blue cheese choices or gouda cheese? The flavors change the varieties of different wines and wines. Add a few melons in Proscuitto Ham and the corresponding fine wine. Sometimes simple escorts can create an "event".

Great French dessert will be "Spectacular" with the right wine. Take the Super Meaty Sub from your favorite Deli and create a real "event". Something simple, beautiful. Looking for a light, yet memorable "event" with the beloved man? This is completely the treatment and creates a "Take Out Sensation of Shakes". All with the addition of fine wine.

The opportunities are almost endless. Let's start with a fine wine and add the Food. BANG! That is why your "event" is ready.

Women and Wines – Perfect Combination!

When women meet friends, it's usually laughter, jokes, and there's usually something wrong with them. Add the fine pair of fine wine, a few glasses, and the party is ready. From the first to the last you will be entertained

With delicious food, fine wines and great company around your girlfriend (you know the best). Women know how to enjoy themselves. They can relax in a comfortable setting, whether they are "9's" or in their pajamas. Enjoy makeup tips and techniques to enjoy the Romance Film Marathon. Each one has even better fine wine to add to the time spent together.

About clubbing for a night in town. A bottle of Wine (or three) shared with the girlfriends is sure to create great times for everyone. Prepare for stress and worry and enjoy your friends, support team, and besties.

Grab a glass (or glass) and enjoy the wine spell as you dance the night, calm and uncomfortable. ] What about romantic dinners or classical music in the park? Go to the Canyon to enjoy the campfire, some dark chocolate, and oh … really good Merlot? If not, I highly recommend it.

Wine is an elixir of life. It has existed for centuries, the literal gift of gods. It is a celebration and a celebration of life, life and special occasions. Something remarkable at every moment … Fine wine

Extends the party, party or romantic party of the two parties with delicious wine!

There are four types of love affair between man and woman

The world is extremely mysterious. Every day we see many things that are taken for granted without knowing how and why this is happening. Billiards people have seen the apple fall to the ground, but never wonder why apple falls to the ground and does not go up. Newton first thought that there was to be some force in which the apple could be pulled down to the ground. This thought led to the discovery of gravity, the universal power of attraction, which existed between all material entities of the universe. Gradually, scientists have discovered electrical and magnetic forces between electrical charges and magnetic materials. Still, scientists never find a satisfactory answer as to why they attract or reject different types of materials?

What is true of the particle world, it is true in the world of living things. Everything in the world is attracted to a member of the opposite sex. Still, there is hardly any answer to why it is happening. All of us as human beings are aware of the power of attraction that moves to each other, but we do not know why this is happening. While scientists have no reason to explain why they attract the material, yet they have discovered some reason for attracting male and female species using evolutionary theory.

They believe that the appeal of male and female races in this world is due to the desire to be coupled with reproducing children. These theories are based on Darwin's evolutionary principle, as the spies do not survive as reproduction. Yet, the answer is incomplete, since even after people have produced children, the power of attraction does not diminish.

Studies have shown that certain physical characteristics stimulate the brain's hypothalamus, resulting in elevated heart rate, sweat and sensation of sexual excitement. What is the answer to this answer? Perhaps the most obvious is the youthful appearance associated with reproductive ability. [Buss, David M. The Evolution of Desire: Strategies of Human Mating. New York: HarperCollins, 1994] Women are likewise attracted to men for what they offer for reproduction.

Yet, boring scientific research is always lacking in the secrets of the universe. What causes heart rate, sweating and feeling? These acts are nothing but a miracle, though we know these happen. Einstein said these words in the following terms: "There are only two ways in which you can live your life: one is like no wonder, and the other is as if it were a miracle."

] Physical attraction is the knowledge of physics. For example, we all know that the charges contrary to it attract. We know that all materials are in neutral. However, they are replenished when electrons are removed from the material and made them positively charged while excess electrons are negatively charged. Consequently, the controversial charges attract you to neutralize accusations and return to the original conditions. The same explanation for magnetic particles.

We can also explain the attitudes caused by gravitation, with the same principles as science, since they believe that all matter and energy were ahead of the big bang. Thus, all sectors are attracted to each other to reach the original neutral state of matter and energy.

Based on the same principle, it may be said that perhaps the opposite sex of affection was his desire, once in the past. We call it love because we know it exists (like gravity), we do not yet know why it exists. Since every person is not only a body, but also a mind, soul, and spirit (God), there are four kinds of love among the species of the human race

. Physical Bonds: The Essential Instinct

Love between men and women is most primitive and based on differences between their bodies. Physical plans complement one another, which attract each other. People get satisfaction and joy in the company of the opposite sex. Even the touch of the hand is pleasant and transmits energy and love. The cause seems to be a chemical, as the body shows increased flow of body fluids and chemicals when physical attachment between men and women occurs.

The physical attachment between boy and girl ends with Tina Turner. Love has done it ", which gathered billions of people around the world in the eighties.

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Physical attachment is the oldest and most important form of love that exits between man and woman. Prostitution is considered to be the world's oldest profession that mankind has discovered to capture this attraction between man and woman. Mental Bonds: Friendship

While animals only find physical attachment to the opposite sex as they can not rise too high above the physical level, men find another form of attachment of men and women with their enhanced intellectual arms. This bond also exists between members of the same sex.

There is a friendship between people who have additional thoughts. Mencius

in his words: "Friendship is a mind in two bodies."

Everyone's mind wants to know what he can not be complete. This knowledge can live with someone else. Friendship comes from the desire of two people to share their thoughts so that their minds grow and become fuller.

Men and women's minds are as complementary as their bodies. So every human being finds another way to look at the world when he sees the worlds in the eyes of the woman. Thus, a man who loved good friends with the word "goodness," as his mind was fully grown up. On the contrary, people who have no friends in the members of the opposite senses are undoubtedly really evil because their opinions are extremely unbalanced. Every dictator and despot has never had a friendship with women, and the list includes Hitler, Stalin and Mao, though they have physical affiliation with women. Therefore, their minds have never really developed. People's satisfaction, peace of mind and peace can only be when they have friends in the opposite sex. Emotional Bondage: The Love of Love

The most beautiful and strongest relationship between men and women is emotional. All emotions automatically fall into people because the desire of souls coalesces. The soul of a man and woman comes from each other, from the same source. It is not just a philosophical truth, but a physical truth as well. Therefore, they always strive to meet each other by balancing each other like the opposite of the electric charge or the magnets of the opposite columns. Emotional attachment between man and woman is often so strong that people sacrifice their lives or kill themselves to try to become. Love is often referred to as fetal attraction because it is responsible for the sins of the world.

Love is like a chemical reaction that transforms man and woman's soul. People in love have changed from their own, because the transformation of their souls as well as hydrogen and oxygen lose their identity when they are tied to the water drop.

Love alone brings peace and happiness to the lives of people who can be bought with all the wealth of the world. [4] Soul Bonding: God In All

Man and Woman Share The Highest Level of Spiritual Bonds with each other. The spiritual relationship is based on the non-physical relationship between people. In this type of relationship, people have no expectation of each other because they seem to be united with their identity with God or the Holy Spirit, which is the origin of all unity of the universe.

Spiritual or non-physical attachment exists between the people's population. the opposite sex in many forms. The love of love manifests itself in love for the mother, love for children, love for brothers and later life even in the love of the spouse. Spiritual love is the last stage of love among all people when the bond is developed to the highest level. The heart of love is always present in man and first loves the child with the mother. Gradually decreases all other forms of love, and only spiritual love remains in the most advanced people in this world than Jesus, Buddha or Gandhi. This form of love is truly selfless and unconditional. [19659902] Development of Human Bondage

The combination of human beings can be categorized into four types. the body, the mind, the soul, and the spirit. The way of life begins with the spiritual attachment of love, which exists solely in a child. However, as man's body, soul and soul grow in this world, the attachment of love manifests itself in different forms. While in the case of animals, the bond barely passes through the physical level, man is physically-mental, emotional, and finally a full circle and returns to the level of the spiritual level. Spiritual love makes man a divine man and integrates it into God to attain salvation or the purpose of life. The cycle of life will continue until a person understands his spiritual love with God and man.

One day from hell

Today is totally and not categorically the day of hell. Hell in the sense of freezing, in contrast to the real pokluss that's hell. We got up this morning for a frozen cold room and I had to work out why.

The problem is the weather. My husband saw a temperature of 13.5 degrees in the winter morning car. Last weekend, my parents came down to take care of the kids while we went to a working party. The effort they made to Cong at Mayon County made things very difficult. I think in America the government has invested in snow and the like, here in Ireland I listened to the news on the radio saying that "A salt tank is on its way from Egypt to Cork harbor." What the hell is he using when the temperature is sub sub sub zero. I feel like living at Russia at the turn of the century.

So the heat problem. On Monday I said to my husband – let's look at the radiator in the living room and in the kitchen – it does not seem to work. So he did, but he could not figure out what the trouble was. I realized that water did not come through the pins on one side of the house, but as long as it was warm in the middle of the house, I did not panic. There is a plug oil heater and an electric blown heater, so I thought she was hugging us. Yesterday during the day there was a central heating during the day, because myself and the kids are at home because the school is locked. At 7.30 I woke up and stood up and realized I was not upstairs. I did not panic until I came down and realized that the ground floor was not hot too. Then I got tired.

So I asked the aforementioned husband to go out and check the oil out in the tank. He said (as always) that we can no longer be out of the oil. I was ignored (as always, because you think an oil delivery is going on forever) and waited to check it out. The result showed that it was a bit on the underside so I had to call the oil company to see when they could deliver it. After listening to Mayo's cousin, he said he was waiting for a week for delivery, but lately I did not have much hope for it, but it was actually transported at 11:30.

I would not mind if I freeze myself, the house you're aware of trying to keep them. It's easier to say than to do when they cling to their socks and the cardigans. So I decided to take a shower in the hope that the pressure of water would last a long time.

Then I called the plumber and said he did not believe he would help me, but later he would speak. So I called the builder, and unlike most builders, this guy was fair enough and said he called on the plumber to discuss it. Meanwhile, the oilman suggested that I get an infrared lamp and put it in the attic and pick up the electrician for a timer. So I called the electrician who told me the stores were telling me of the infrared lights, but there were some of them on the order so he would try to call tomorrow.

So the kids fought – one of them from the chair so I told her to go to bed. The younger was tired, so she went to bed. Peace is done. Then I called my neighbors and told her there was no heat and she was very nice to her son with two bags, fire and Dimplex heater. So the old Irish tradition is not dead!

Then the plumber arrived and delivered my final circle to the coffin "we can not do anything until the dissolution happens." This is expected after Christmas. In other words, there will be no heat in the house for the next 3 or 4 days. Although I expected something, I was not too happy. He also said that the outer tubes are exposed and need to dig deep, insulate and concretate. This would be done in New Year (10 days later). That's why I went to town and bought two Dimplex heaters and an electric blanket for 210 euros. I also have to pay the electrician and plumber. Christmas is an expensive time, and I could have done that without it. Not to mention that when we got home from the city, I had to feed the starving (cold) dog and felt guilty that she left her afternoon. So we look forward to Christmas holidays without central heating, minus 10 minus 14 degrees. In January, the electricity bill will be high, but if we do not use Dimplex heaters, there is a risk of freezing

A spiritual revolution

Did you ever wonder why everybody sends a positive and optimistic message in today's world? Why do so many seek psychological guidance? I believe the world is preparing for a spiritual revolution. I think mankind is tired of old models. I think that each person followed the same goal: to be happy. But happiness means different things for different people. Happiness is not a unique, shared concept or reality. What makes you happy is not what makes you happy or your neighbor. That is why I believe that mankind takes on a spiritual revolution that will better understand what we are and what we want. And what we all want is no exception to being happy or happiness.

Some people are beginning to criticize this positive happiness trend, saying it is blinding us. And I somehow agree. There is a new positive trend that floods our lives. People are sharing more and more optimistic thoughts and sentences, growing mantras for positive messages and happiness. But the tools of optimism and happiness will only work if they are properly guided and targeting clear goals. Optimism, happiness, and positive psychology are just concepts that people reliably point to certain concepts. But as expressions, they have no internal power. These are just a set of letters or sounds.

Optimism, happiness and positive thinking help the world escape from the old, negative, pessimistic, unhappy tendencies that flooded our world for so many years. In the past he was openly happy to frown. When someone exhibited happiness and optimism, he was paralyzed by being foolish. Today many claim that they have the right to stop punishing their happiness. And that is a positive pursuit in itself.

The problem arises when, as in anything else, the positive tendencies are pushed to their extremes and viewed as the only truth. She had been happy to frown before; today is sad to wrinkle his forehead. Who does his forehead? A happy eyebrow is sad and vice versa.

I think this is because they all have different understandings of what happiness means. If happiness means peace to you, you will not understand the cheerful, noisy person whose determination of happiness requires loud exhibitions. And you can twist them. If, however, happiness requires you to jump and laugh, you can fretlessly wring someone who quietly enjoys his precious tranquility. So even sad can be happy in your own, personal way. Who is it to judge?

Optimism and positive thinking then become the means of happiness. Let them use these tools if they want to. These are valid as long as they aim for a clearly defined happiness. And as we have seen before, we all need to determine happiness. We do not ask us to use these tools; they are only distributed because the opposite is for many centuries. Why not start respecting others just how they are? Why should we criticize the new positive movement or the old, negative? Who knows what is right? My suggestion is rather to seek a new spiritual revolution in which humanity stops criticizing and punishing the punishment, and rather accepts it and begins to love it. Some people need silence to be happy. So what? Others need noise. So what? And they need others … whatever. So what? This is their happiness, not yours.

Enjoy life … ALL,


Gray laments

Oh Syria, Syria!

What did you do?

Assassination of Young Citizens,

Women and Children?

Armless, defenseless and helpless:

Destroying the city into twigs

Turning to the spirit of the spirit.

Oh Syria!

The innocent, invites the earth like

An Alien:

Oh Syria! Will not peace be governed?

Children crying,

Helpless, others dead!

What have you done?

What do you build Syria?

Did not you feed enough?

Will not there be peace?

See the Pain of Your Children!

Sorry, Syria. The Mourning of Days

is numbered.

End to wickedness!

Do not you see the blood leak?

Women have spat on widows!

The children turned to orphans!

Are you buying blood with blood?

Where art is your humanity?

The earth bowed while you ate

And wine with its allies!

Dine with wine until

Land groans.

Be alone, hear the noise.

Not the sheep, but the victim

The annoyance that you have freed

Your children wonder …

What crime did they have?

Syria is torn and the world


Gloomy Leaders Who

Never Satisfied. Constantly beast

The innocent blood while

The world's wine, eating and praying

As if nothing had happened!

Is this life?

Is this humanity?

When? When is peace coming back to O Syria?

The refugees how they wanted to return came back to their troubled home. Oh, how long!

Children are looking forward to playing in the streets without gunshots.

Do not you see? See the fear in their eyes! Oh Syria!

The streets of Damascus are empty, they are dead.

How long does it take? Oh Syria!

Enough enough! World leaders, get up and talk!

Speak against genocide; Talk to the deceased,

talk about the murdered cold blood.

Speak against injustice: leaders, leaders talk!

Let him have peace to rule in Syria, Stop it.

The end of the destruction.

Destruction must stop!

Children are dying! Mothers are dying, rats are dying.

Who will stay on earth while everything disappears?

This is not the case, not so: it must be ended. Cease all

Enemies and embrace peace in Syria!

The path of peace is sweeter, embrace love!

The Way of Love is creating a better place for the world.

Must stop and say no to the murders.

Is not there a talk? Then I lend my voice,

So, peace, who would be the witness?

Think! Think! Think!

Oh Syria!